Its been 3 days since I got my chest piece tattooed. Its a huge island of tight scab it feels OOOOO so pretty. Bah. I literally can do anything I did before just holding baby is hard. The Bee is all colored in and it the worst part. Due to when I had my shower I was in a lot of pain and super tired. I only slept 4 hours and got 6 hours of tattooing done. So since I did not wash it right I have this thick scab so not good Oh wells. The only thing I have to worry about is when I sleep. My chin sits on the Bee. I was so good last night until the last hour I woke up chin on my chest Bee all gnarly.

Woo. Olivia is officially rolling over. Which is scary. She can move so much more now. Shes almost 5 months. Soon she will be eating solids. Yay real poop not just Breast milk poop. Shes also really liking her jumper. Grabbing at things looking at them like shes really interested. So all in all lifes good minus my island of scab.

I also finally finished some paintings.

I cleaned my whole house. I want it to be a stress free area. I do not want to be all stiff and need to clean. I just need to vacuum. Gotta wait till morning. Man my brain is going a mile a minute. I am all nerves. I have 11Hrs and 20Mins until my chest piece overhaul starts. BAH!

So I went for my tattoo consultation yesterday. Its going to be huge. I am so excited. So the finished design is way better then I ever expected the skull is going yay. I am replacing it with a big bee. The spider webs and scroll are also going. The spiderwebs are going to be covered with big flowers and the scroll is going to be a big frilly bow. I am excited. But I am nervous. Its only 2 days away. Its my chest and I have a 4 month old. I know I know sometimes you just gotta go with it. Some people thinks its not alright to get tattooed while nursing. But if you keep good care of your tattoo it should be good. I am more worried about her being all up in my grill.. so to speak. 

Its good I am getting it on Friday Shawn will be here and on Saturday I can ask his parents to look after her. They love looking after her. Olivia is also hanging out with her cousins at my Parents on Friday. So far everything is looking good. I hope by Monday I will be not so stiff and able to do my normal everyday things.

Man Its so nice outside. I need to get dressed get my ass outside. I need the exercise. I have been loosing a good 1 pound a week. When I exercised I lost 7Lbs in one week. So If I get off my ass I can do it. I am eating right but not moving enough. I feel like a lump. I keep talking about it and not doing it and IT DRIVES ME INSANE. That all it takes is standing up putting on cloths and shoes and doing it but I am here sitting on my couch with my TV on typing about it. I am looking at bathing suits. I am for sure interested in the Aqua fit class at the Leisure Center. Only $5.50 a class. So its a start I just gotta get a bathing suit. If I look pretty and feel good in it I will want to go. So thats my new goal. Swimsuit, AquaFit, then maybe maybe something else..Yoga maybe even Hot Yoga.

My hair turned out cute. My haircut is awesome. I love it. I want it more pink tho. Woo. Tomorrow I am cleaning up my balcony. Everyone in our strata got a letter. I guess a reminder for Spring Cleaning.... I hate strata. Some of our people are nice. But there is always a few dinks. It sucks. I would not mind being on the strata but I rent. So I am not allowed.

So I am down a total of 1.4Lbs for this week. So nice to loose rather then stay the same or heaven forbid I GAIN. Instead of buying weight watchers snacks...I got the starter kit. So I have a fresh journal..No more slacking. No thank you. I am going to track properly. Im going to decorate my stuff so I take care of it and not just toss it around. I want to be proud of my progress. I want to be the person in the Meeting where they ask in front of everyone "How much have you lost now?" and I reply "100Lbs" I want that. I want to be that hot girl with pretty tattoos I want that. It will take a lot of work but I am ready. I am 26 years old its time to take care of myself.


GO TEAM ME!

I feel so corny but I dont give a shit. I need to take care of me for my daughter. I don't want to be the token fat Mom, friend, Sister, daughter. Thats not me anymore. This will change my life.

Today was a big day for Olivia well me more. She figured out some things today. She discovered the whale on her Vibby chair make things light up and move.  She also found the spinny thing on the jumper. I left for a few minutes. I came back to her jumping and laughing BY HERSELF... So nice for this progress. I can pee and take my time. Yay! Its like something clicked in her head its so crazy.

I am getting really into painting. I have finished 2 of 3 of a 3X3 set. I also started an 11X20 which is turning out great. I need to take pictures. Tomorrow my friend Abby is coming over. She is cutting my hair and coloring it. Soft pinky-orange I am excited. I hate that I am using a Lady GaGa picture but oh wells I love her hair.

                                 
 

I wonder how its all going to work out with Olivia. I will probably have to hold her most the time. Oh wells. If it works it works. I hope it turns out well. I just need a trim. Cut some of the bulk at the back out. Then I will be pretty... Oh so pretty.

I went to Michaels Craft store today. I have been painting a lot lately and have gotten the art bug back. I got a set of brushes that are awesome and around 25 acrylic colors. I wish I could afford  Golden products man.. There paint is thinner and super bright. But 10 bucks a tube.. Maybe I will buy 2 tubes a payday. I dunno I want to go Opus Arts since they have a bigger selection once I get more money. I also go 7 stretched canvas super cheap. Go 40% off coupon. I cannot wait for the summer so I can paint on the deck. Have Olivia out there just enjoying outside.

It will be nice to be able to have picnics and play in the park with her. She will be 9 months in August.  Its so crazy tomorrow shes going to be 4 months. It feels like yesterday I was huge and pregnant with sore hips. She has been off today just not in a good mood. She has her freak out moments but shes not her happy bouncy self today. I can feel one tooth coming in. It must hurt  her a lot. I might give her an ice cube to suck on.

So this week I am trying not to over do the junk food. I am on weight watchers. I always eat with in my points its just I 2 bit it to death with junk. I have a good breakfast 1 egg grapes toast with margarine and water. Or a bowl of cereal with Banana. My lunch I dunno sometimes my breakfast is my lunch. My dinners are always good Stir fry with a protein sometimes with cheese. Its my late night eat that sucks. Since I am nursing I need to eat right before bed so I am not starving during her first feed. That is where the Junk comes in. I have Weight watcher bars. Ice cream popcycles. Thinsations, meringue cookies. Ill have like 13 points left and since those are all around 2-4 points I can have a junk fest before bed. I am starting to buy more healthier junk like fancy yogurt and nuts. It still feels like I get my fix but its not as much. I eat a ton of fruit since I LOVE SUGAR. Man its an addiction.

I asked my team leader Rochelle to look at my food journal every week so I am accountable to someone. It helps. I hope this week I lose something. Last week I did not gain or loose. Bah. So lame. Oh wells. I just want to be down the 80Lbs by October.

I am finally getting my chest piece finished. This makes my day. I am re designing it really. I am making it more girlie and cute. I was a little to hardcore when I was 18. LoL. Well I am getting vacation pay and its paying for it. Plus I found a good artist with a style I love.. Christina Christie art is right up my alley.

The before shot.

I am planning on covering the spider webs and scroll. I am making the skull more like a Mexican day of the dead skull. I am also going to cover the spider webs with roses and  Flowers. I am thinking of replacing my scroll into a bow. I am very excited. I have been putting it off forever. Then bang Appt. March 25. Woo. I hope my Bestie Birdie can come. I hate going alone. But its at noon on a Friday.

I also found these cute necklaces today I am in love with all their stuff. Its like Huge ShrinkEdinks. I really love their Bee stuff too. Very cute. I am finding so much I want to buy online just gotta wait to pay my visa down. So lame. I miss ebay shopping. Its maybe sorta kinda a small addiction. I like presents in the mail from myself.

I need to go to an Art store to get brushes badly my brushes suck. I have dollar store ones I got a long ass time ago. I want to start painting again and doing art. I am starting to get things done I have been putting off when she naps. Instead of cleaning. I started a painting and I am digging the way its turning out. I want to start making my own canvas's. Its way cheaper. I will ask my dad and learn to use that scary saw. The canvas I saw at Opus that I am in love with is like $120. Its Huge. Now I am off to bed I have strawberry curlers in my hair. I am going to have an "awesome" sleep Woo.